A WORD OF THANKS IS NEVER ENOUGH .

It's been quite a while since I blogged (Have been pushing this post back cause I'm so lazy omo), and yes I've received my O level results and I must say I'm pretty shocked and grateful for my results. (Can't believe I haven't blogged about this it has been a million weeks already lol)

Before receiving the results, I kind of expected myself to get like around 15-16ish kind of thing and then I didn't expect much - because higher expectations leads to higher disappointments hahaha so I totally thought I'll get that score because I totally screwed up amaths, I didn't know how to do most of paper 1 and didn't finish paper 2, and yet the unexpected happened.

So on that day I met up with some of my classmates and had lunch in the school canteen, it's been sooo long since we ate there, and then the stall owners wished us luck and stuff and we were thankful and stuff. So as more and more people start to gather in the school, everyone was getting more excited and the atmosphere was pretty tense, some were worried and some were just glad to see their pals again after so long.

And then it's time to go up and we're all seated there, busy chatting with each other and stuff and the teachers gave out brochures and pamphlets from various schools and stuff, all the usual procedure and then the principal arrived and everyone began to stop talking and listened attentively for the results which may affect the rest of their life.

And as usual, there will be the talk about the average scores for each level (4E & 5N), and also the different subjects, some subjects did better and some subjects wasn't that satisfactory. The principal said we didn't do very well but I guess it's okay (cause we kind of did better than the previous batch) and our scores is within expectation so it's pretty okay. And the combined science (chem/bio) did pretty well and the principal commended us so we were all glad to be able to secure that subject. And then the top 5 in the level, 4 of them from my class, which they totally deserved it, pretty sure everyone can see their hardwork during the school term, they were all like putting in effort and they were all very smart indeed. Congratulations !

And then after Mr Goh's speech, Mr Wong had another speech to talk about the different pathways and stuff like JCs, Polys ITEs and stuff like that, and everyone was pretty much nervous about their results at this time. And then when it was finally time, THE HALL WAS PRETTY MUCH IN CHAOS. People were walking around and asking each other of the scores or just stand by the teacher's desk to spy and stuff like that. And so the results were given out in index number so we had to wait for our turn and I WAS FEELING LIKE MY WHOLE HEART IS GONNA COME OUT or something and Melissa was like texting me "heartbeat heartbeat thump thump thump" which made me even more nervous i was like asdfghjkl idek what to do.

And so Dagny received his results (His dad was there too), and almost everyone was like asking how he did, expecting him to get top for English (But our school's English is really terrible though) and he gotten a B3 for English which is pretty good ! And his L1R5 and L1R4 scores were pretty decent as well, which was like around what I expected myself to get so I thought I'll do around there too. Then my turn came and I totally did not even dare to look into Mr Chia's eye when he looked at me (Y'know that feeling, yeah) and then when he gave me my slip, i didn't look at it yet and i left the seat.

I was thinking of going to a corner to see first BUT EVERYONE STARTED ROAMING TOWARDS ME and stuff and I didn't even get the chance to see my own results first ;-; Then everyone started saying i did well and stuff like that so I looked at my results and was thinking like "wow is this mine?" and I was totally taken aback. I even passed amaths with a B3 !! I was like totally stunned and Dagny was pretty pissed with getting the same score as me for amaths cause he knew how to do that paper lol. But i guess the bell curve concept is what that made me do so well lol I DIDN'T EVEN DO THAT WELL IN PRELIMS. Not trying to be a brag here but I've gotten a net score (after deducting CCA and stuff) of 9 for L1R5 and 7 for L1R4. People said I could go anywhere I wanted to go, and yet that's the problem I had - I didn't know where I wanted to go.

And Dagny's father was encouraging me to choose JC instead of poly and then I was like, idek what to say. I've already like decided on going to the Polys long time ago and JCs was completely out of the picture but after seeing my results, and people were like encouraging me to go into JC, I did consider and yeah, it's in 2 of my choices for the JAE (the rest were all poly courses ranging from humanities to media). 12 really tough  choices, I'm not sure if I would regret it (I hope I wouldn't), and all that's left is to wait for the posting results to be out next week. And there's also a medical check up .__.

So we went around asking people how they did and stuff and then Dagny, Jonas and I went to Pizza Hut for Lun-ner. And then we were talking about stuff and it was kind of depressing. Jonas did not do as well as he expected and was thinking of going into business in polytechnics. he got about 17ish kind of score and he did not want to go into a JC anymore.

Received alot of congratulations from friends and teachers and I'm really thankful for that. Without them, I don't think I'll be able to do so well, I improved so much from prelims to Os. Thank you to the teachers, for never giving up on us, their guidance and offering to help us even after curriculum hours. A word of thanks is never enough. My friends and classmates helped me alot as well, or rather, we all tried to help each other as much as we can, because we all want our class and everyone to do well as well, there's people who always helped us when we don't know how to do a question, people who printed things for us, all of these things had helped us a lot in being better prepared for O levels.

All I want to say about this whole event is just 2 words, Gratitude & Miracle. Being thankful for this unexpected twist, I guess we've managed to make gratitude our attitude ;)