思.念 .

it's mother's day today and my dad asked me a question this morning when we were out to the market. He suddenly asked "Do you still think of mama? Or have you forgotten her?" I nodded my head in silence and walked behind, it was a rather awkward thing to ask though.

Of course I will still keep her forever in my heart. The times and memories, I don't want to forget them. Now I miss her a lot. I really want to see her again, but it's impossible. All I can do is just to look back at the times we had together and also the old photos. It seems like I hardly had taken any photos with her in the recent years before she left us, but I guess it's because no one had expected it.

Losing someone dear to you, it's something painful. I don't want to experience it again. But it's part of life. People come and go. It's a cycle. Well, what I can do is just to cherish the people around me before it's all too late.

But it's a good thing that I adapted quickly and try not to let it affect me that much, well after 1 year plus, I guess I have succeeded in letting it go and not to dwell on it anymore. What for stay in the past when there's the present and future to work on and improve on. But you'll always be in my prayers :')

well, happy mother's day
xoxo