It's that time of the year again to do a look back of the year, and the lessons and things I have learnt for the past year! It's so fast. The year has past by us so quickly in a blink of an eye. It has been a happening year - there are things I am thankful for, things which didn't go very well, things I have learnt.
It's been a pretty fruitful year I would say, like there's so many things which happened, all of which has like a lesson for me to learn about. Although it may not be good events, but I'm sure these experiences would help me to become a better person. Hopefully.
When the year started, I hope that 2014 will go pretty smooth, like new school, new friends and everything. Like I have a love-hate relationship with poly life, I like it because it's fun with the people and it's sort of more relaxed as compared to JC, but like it's still super hectic with all the never ending assignment deadlines being crammed together and there's also a lot of drama.
2014, I started working - for the first time in my life! It was a fun 2 months at Toys' R Us, like I learnt a lot about how these kind of shops work, and it's really tiring so I kind of understand and appreciate their hardwork, like those sales people. Made lots of happy memories there too, but like happiness is always short lived, management changed and stuff (which was one of the reasons why I left), but I'm still thankful for their guidance :)
I also started poly life! It was a brand new phase in my life, transiting from secondary school life to poly life. It felt that I was just taking my O levels few months ago but TIME FLIES. I still feel that I'm new to poly life, despite being in school for like almost a year already lol maybe I should get a CCA idk but I'm lazy. But I am blessed to be able to make some new friends, people whom I know will always be there for me, who never fails to make my day every single day. It's been nice for the year and I hope it'll be better for the next few years :)
Sometimes I really just prefer to not say anything (so not to make matters worst), and just be a silent observer, but I think that's really not the way. I shouldn't be keeping everything in by myself but there's no other outlets for me to express them. But sometimes when I really can't stand it anymore, I will just let it out, but I always have to think twice before it. It's really hard. There's been a lot of things happening for me this year which affected emotionally/mentally and I just don't know how to deal with them. Sometimes I just tolerate and put on a strong front, pretending not to care and brushing it off, but deep inside I feel sorry and emotionally drained. Sometimes I just break down and cry, like I usually don't cry so easily but like now I get so easily affected by other's feelings and can start tearing/crying over trivial things ugh.
Like I was watching the latest Roommate episode where Jackson finally meet his mother after a long time, and when they finally reunited, they started crying, everyone else was crying, it was so emotional - I just start to get teary but then it was like so touching/emotional I started crying (my mum was wondering what's wrong). Like it was touching cause Jackson left his parents to come to Korea to train and become an idol, and his mother, who is sick, can't go overseas that much, thus needs to stay in Hong Kong, and they finally met after like years, it's really touching. Like the other casts were all tearing up as well. Okay off-topic but well, I get super sensitive when it comes to like really touching scenes between families. Like family is very important to me.
Yes I do miss my grandma a lot, like especially on days where I feel lonely and neglected. Always remember the days where I had nothing to do I will always go to her room to accompany her and she'll tell me things and we watch TV together while snacking lol. Nowadays like, don't really have anyone to talk to about my things at home, like kinda awkward to talk to my parents about like the problems I have and stuff, cause they think I should be able to handle them myself. Well I guess it's a learning process.
I think I've mentioned before that one of the reasons why I don't open up easily is that I don't want to burden others with my problems, cause like everyone has their own problems already, I don't want to add on to the pile and be a burden, you get my point?
I guess it's something to learn and work on for the next year. Every year at this point of time, people make new year resolutions and hope to achieve them. But it seems like I didn't really achieve most of them HAHAHAHA but well, it's just good to have things going smoothly and hope for the better. Well for the upcoming new year, I hope to become a better person (cliche much), and be able to express myself more freely and be a more thoughtful and loving person :) Life is indeed a daring adventure or nothing. Happy new year & wishing all of you a year filled with love, peace and happiness :)
p.s Hoping my favourite kpop people&groups will do well and release more great music in the coming year! Especially for Girls' Generation, despite losing a member, I really hope they will rise back and become stronger and prove that the legacy isn't over yet. Yes I do miss the 9, but there's nothing I can do but to look for the future and keep supporting till the end, together. As for Jessica, I hope she will do well in her solo activities as well as her fashion brand. She's very strong, despite all that has happened, she is able to bounce back and keep on fighting for her dreams, which I admire (same for the 8 others). Reasons why Girls' Generation is my role model, 지금은 소녀시대 !! :)
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