UNWIND .

The 3 weeks break is coming to an end - and it flew by in a blink of an eye (as always), and during this break, I felt that it was quite a relaxing one, there wasn't a lot of assignments to do (apart from a few project meetups) so I spent most of the time just chilling at home, going out, catching up with friends etc, basically just chilling around and enjoying life.

Can't believe we are already nearing the end of 3.1, the first semester of our final year in poly...... and soon we're gonna start our attachment .... and the thought of it already made me dread it. Hopefully a good centre and good staff to support us in our learning lol.

Time flies. Slowly becoming an adult and seeing the outside world. Everyone wants to stay in their youths but everyone has to face it someday - the adult world where everything seems so hectic and tiring. Everyone is just working hard and achieving their dreams, which is good, but what happens to living a life?



Actually I still don't know what I want to do in the future, like I don't picture myself doing a certain specific thing in the future. It feels like I will go around and around, finding something I can do well in, finding a purpose in life. Whenever people ask me what I want to do in the future, I always don't know how to answer, that is one of the bigger uncertainty I have, like I'm almost reaching 20 but I still don't know what I want to achieve. People say its good to have a goal and go towards it but what I am doing is to take a step slowly and explore different choices and things and hopefully find something which I like?

I don't want to be stuck in the same job or having the same lifestyle for like the rest of my life, but I like doing different things which I like and have interests for. But then again, I'm someone who always tries to stick myself in my comfort zone and have a routine to doing things and not someone who's very spontaneous and do whatever I want just like that. Although I'm slowly adjusting and improving but sometimes I think I don't know myself very well, but then they all say the person who knows you the best is yourself lol.

But then again it's important to not lose yourself in the midst of finding who you truly are. Some people might want to be someone else they are not just because they are not happy with themselves and want to portray another image of themselves. But then it's okay because everyone learn to improve themselves slowly through different experiences and feeling different things. Sometimes the happier you are, the unhappier you can get. And the unhappier you are, the more happiness you can seek from within.

In the midst of working hard and working for your dreams and goals, one must always remember to recharge and take a step back and enjoy the little things in life which we might not experience after we lose it....

ok I think that's enough for today lol I'm just writing on and on and I'm sorry if I sound very confusing HAHAHAHA