INFERIORITY COMPLEX .

Going to be very truthful with myself about this shitty feeling I've been feeling for the past few days about myself and there's nothing much I can do but to drown myself in denial thinking that "everything will be fine" and that "things will work out eventually". But will everything go smoothly as expected?

I can't always simply just expect everything to go well when the issue is with myself. Sometimes there were times were I doubt myself and whether I'm really lacking alot. Why do I not seem to get it right when others can? What is wrong with me?

Yes I'm worried about what is yet to come but there's no other way but to face it and put in the double, triple effort in the work but usually people don't bother about the effort you put in but only the end product. It sucks knowing how eventually you will be responsible for every thing you do and you are always expected to do whatever it takes to be the best and good at what you are doing. But what if you don't like what you're doing and you're forced to do it? What do you do if you're still expected to master everything but you couldn't no matter how hard you try?

I felt the problem was with myself but I just hope for a miracle to happen to bring me through. Maybe the problem lies with me -  as the saying goes "grass is always greener on the other side", hate to admit but I'm someone envious of the others who are doing what I initially hoped to do but oh wells, you can't get everything you want in life. Alot of "maybes" and "what ifs" - fear of the unknown future and fear of what is yet to come.