It's that time of the year again to do a reflection of the year; which has somewhat turned into a yearly tradition for the past 6 years to do a blog post at the end of the year. (Check out the older posts in #YEARINWORDS) Although I didn't blog that much this year, it has been a really busy year of changes and new experiences.
This year also marks an end of a phase and also a start of a new chapter. I completed my poly education in Feb and graduated with a diploma in Early Childhood Education in May and it was something we all have been looking forward to for the past three years in poly. I have pretty much summed up the "short yet long" three years in my graduation post and end of poly post so I'm not going to repeat all the cliche stuff but honestly it has been a fulfilling experience despite being the minority in a "female dominated industry" but I think it will get better. It has also been a blessing to meet and click well with friends who I can count on everyday.
Upon graduating from poly, I went back into working life at a student care centre for about three months from April to June. It is somewhat related to my course yet different as it was a totally different age group of children. I had fun during that three months and it was not a job I find it a bore as interesting stories always happen everyday when you are with young children - who can be monsters at time yet somewhat innocent. I also went back to visit them in September during my break and oh boy it was nice to see them again!
The start of a new chapter this year - entering national service in July. It was something which I somewhat dreaded at the start but slowly getting used to it thanks to the people around me who helped to make my days better. Be it in Tekong - my Ninja P2S3 boys or Sembawang platoon 3 bunk 1 boys, they have all helped to make the dreaded days a bit bearable and have brought much joy and laughter as well. Missing the time spent with everyone but not missing the camps obviously. After being separated from my boys and entering a unit where I will be spending the rest of my national service life at - I felt rather apprehensive at first but thankfully the people there are really friendly and approachable so it made everything a lot better. Also my batch boys (although there's only 4 of us) but it's been a blessing to meet yall so I wouldn't feel so lonely everytime LOL everyday is full of laughs without fail.
Although we are still in training but soon enough in about a month's time we will be finally starting the real thing. I honestly hope that everything will go smoothly and that I will be blessed with the skillset needed to accomplish the tasks given and be able to survive. Some of my close friends might know that I was somewhat falling into a slump and self-esteem dropped halfway through the training phase. During that period, everyday felt so dreadful and I received immense stress which I don't know where to channel all the negativity to and unfortunately let it take over me and thus having an inferiority complex. I always believe that it's good to put in the best in everything I do but if even with "my best" it's not enough, alot more has to be done.
Thankfully I was able to overcome all that and received alot of encouragement that I will be able to do it. I remember a certain phrase someone I respect a lot said to us and I still remember it till now "at the end of the day you will realise you are worrying about things which might probably never happen". I felt really comforted and reassured by those words though it has been a rough time but tough times don't last (tough man do HA). Guess that will be something I might need to work on for the new year - to be more confident and try not to feel inferior and upset with myself. Life doesn't stop just because yours does.
I also met Jessica and Red Velvet (and VIXX & FT Island) too this year so I'm thankful for that. To meeting more idols next year and not be broke (aka usual "save money" resolution every year). Also started a new YouTube channel for fun honestly - just to capture special moments in life but mainly posting Vlogs and Unboxing videos now so hopefully next year I can make it better with more content (but probably needa invest on a good vlogging camera first HA)
As we grow older each year, our thinking and mindsets would have changed. What we want to achieve each year might change as well but ultimately I'm just ALWAYS blessed to find the good in everyday to get through the year. I feel that these experiences help to shape us into a better person as we learn how to cope with different situations which life throws us. I would say that this year I'm slowly getting out of my comfort zone and doing things which I probably never done before so I'm learning alot and growing alot as well.
2018 - will finally turn 21 !! Somewhat excited yet unsure of what is yet to come cause adulting life but next year will just be me in national service so hope I survive lol but hey 1/4 of national service is completed!! About another 18 months to go so let's all just stay healthy and go through it smoothly ~
May next year be filled with love, peace and happiness for everyone ~ Happy 2018! :)
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