PRETENCE HAPPINESS .

Always trying so hard to think that everything is fine and it will all past but the feelings just keep occuring back and it feels so damn uncomfortable. But it's always easier to pretend to be alright - easier than explaining to everyone why you're not.

If everyone thinks everything is fine and you're the only one who seemed to be resisting it, I guess it's better to just go with everyone's view because "we are expected to follow the masses" and if we don't we will be "judged" and probably "outcasted" due to unpopular opinion. 

Never understood the double standards and hypocrite behavior around because why is it okay for someone else to experience something at their expense and yet you yourself cannot allow that to happen to you? If you don't want it to happen to you, then don't practice that behavior. 

So done with trying to deal with such negativity and trying to act like everything is going to be and will be alright because it seems like it would only show that I'm okay and that everyone thinks it's okay. But then again, it'll be more tiresome to say it's not fine and there will be a lot of after effects so I guess there's nothing much to do but to just deal with it. 

Until it ends.