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I remember very vividly a year ago. The rather intense and real argument we had. The one which we were truthful and real about our stance, for a time which I don't want to go back to. It was a matter of understanding and an issue of trust which we both had not fulfilled.

I used to think I was the one who was the "victim" but we know there is no one true "bad guy" in the situation because it always takes two hands to clap. Truthfully, I was very frustrated when it happened - thinking that you were just biased in what you want to believe, being all one-sided and not trying to understand where I was coming from. As much as I felt there wasn't a need to explain myself (because of the selfish view that I don't owe you an explanation for something I haven't done), I felt that it was a moment of fury, and we both acted on the basis of our raging emotions, without thinking about other factors. 

I said sorry for the sake of apologizing, but I don't think I was ever sincere about this particular incident. I was blind with thinking what I want to believe in as well, that you were finding reasons to pull me down. Again, without any trust or mutual understanding, such fights would happen.

It was regrettable, many unsaid words, but I was thankful for it. Thanks for letting me see the truth in humans.