EPILOGUE | #30DAYS .

[Day 30- In this past month, what have you learned]

It is finally the last day of my #30DAYS challenge. I thought I wouldn't be able to spend time each day to blog but I completed this challenge successfully! In a blink of an eye, 30 days has passed and I feel really relieved and glad that I finished this task of 30 days of blogging.

In the past month, although a short time, I had learnt a couple of things about myself. Doing this challenge had helped me get to know myself better in a way and allowed me a platform to express some of the thoughts which I did not get the opportunity to say previously.

In the past month, my final semester in my polytechnic life has also started. I keep finding myself saying this but time really flies. This semester is probably going to be really short (plus the fact that we only have school twice a week) and in no time, it would be the last day of school and then graduation and off to national service.

All I could say is to embrace change and keep moving along. It's better to cherish every single moment and stay true to my beliefs and not get swayed by external factors. Hopefully I am blessed with the motivation and hope to keep going.

Anyways, hopefully I would still continue to have the habit of blogging regularly so thank you all for following my #30DAYS journey :)

// 11/11 - it has been 4 years. still missing you and thankful for you. //

GROWTH | #30DAYS .

[Day 29- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?]

2015

2016

 To be honest I feel like I haven't really changed a lot over the year? Like this year seems like it passes by really quickly and there were a lot of learning opportunities which helped me to better mature as a person? But generally I think I'm still the same.

Didn't change that much over the past year but definitely grew a lot in my growing up years - as compared to like lower secondary lol. Became wiser and less talkative, more matured in my thinking and became someone who is able to understand other's better. I guess it's all for the better and part of growing up.

But still don't want to grow up so quickly. Yet.

BACKSTORY: #30DAYS CHALLENGE | #30DAYS .

[Day 28- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge]

It's almost the end of my #30DAYS challenge hurray! Probably going to feel a little empty after it all ends because I always either have no time to blog or don't know what to blog about - but I will try to not neglect this space as much as I previously did.

Throughout these 30 days, there are many interesting topics which came up and topics which I don't know how to answer but I tried LOL. So as mentioned in my very first post for #30DAYS, I started doing this challenge because I haven't been blogging as much these two years as compared to previously in secondary school lol and like I remember doing this challenge in secondary school too but doing it again helps me to learn more about myself and some ideas might change so #30DAYS is a good way to reflect on myself and more importantly - to keep the blog alive.

BLESSED | #30DAYS .

[Day 27- What you think about your friends]

I have always considered myself to be fortunate enough to have really good close friends around me to share joys and sadness in my life together with. It's not about the quantity but the quality.

Sometimes, friends are the pillars of strength you have, the support you need to conquer or overcome any setback which you might have. Sometimes, friends help you to learn new things about them as well as yourself and grow wiser as a person. I always like to listen to little episodes in my friends life, which makes me get a wider horizon of the world and also learn new things at the same time. There are also times where we depend on each other and share woes and then giving advices to each other.

Although there are friends who enter and leave my life, I always think that it helps us to grow as a person as we gain experiences. But I would never deny the fact that we were once friends. There are also people where I have been close to but then things happened and we lost touch with each other. In life it's destined to happen. When there is this much of a distance between people, it is really difficult to maintain that level of friendship that is easier to cultivate when people are together.

Nevertheless, I'm thankful and blessed to have known so many people whom I call friends. 10 years down, 20 years down, 50 years down, I hope that would never change.

I REGRET | #30DAYS .

[Day 26- Something which you regret]

First,
I regret being foolish.
I regret being selfish for myself.
But at times, I regret not taking care of myself.

Second,
I regret falling for my desires.
I regret doing something which harmed others.
We both became as if we were strangers.

Third,
I regret not paying more attention to you.
I regret not spending more time with you.
Sometimes, I still regret my immature actions.

Regrets stay as regrets
Learn from them and not commit the same thing again.

WHAT'S IN MY BAG | #30DAYS .

[Day 25- What I would find in your bag]

This sounds like a title for a YouTuber video LOL like they always do the 'what's in my bag' video and show everyone what's inside lol. But anyways, since I'm not a YouTuber, I'm just going to share some of the things which I bring along in my bag.

Actually it depends on where I am going for the day and the things which I would need. But no matter where I go definitely would bring along my phone, wallet, earpiece and portable charger. Other things you might find in my bag would include laptop, stationary, foolscap, notebook, asthma inhaler, sweets, charger, tissue, thumb drive? Like super typical things you would find lol.

LETTER TO PARENTS | #30DAYS .

[Day 24- A letter to your parents]

Dear parents,

It's probably the first time I'm writing a letter to you all? Even though yall probably wouldn't read this lol cliche but all I want to say is thank you for all the care and concern for the past 19 years.

Although there are times when I might find your naggings a chore, ultimately it's probably for my own good. Over the years we might not have a lot of serious talks so you all probably don't know what I'm feeling or any problems which I face and because you trust me to be able to solve amd overcome any challenges by myself.

As someone who doesn't show my emotions a lot and find it awkward to say affectionate words, I don't think I have said a word of 'I Love You' in my growing up years, but through other actions we can know that we actually care for each other.

Hopefully you will be able to see the good in me more and hope that we can all stay happy for a long long time.

x

CRAVINGS | #30DAYS .

[Day 23- Something you crave for a lot]

FOOD
I'm literally craving for korean steamboat and bbq ++ RAMEN now. AND SUSHI. Actually I'm not very picky with food but if I don't like something I usually try not to eat them? And when I like to eat  a certain food or from a certain place, I would always go back to eat the same thing LOL. Like people say I'm a good eater, but then personally for me, it has to depend on the food? If it's something I like then I would probably have a bigger appetite for it.

FREEDOM

Always wanted to have more freedom in doing things by my will and to also to be feel more free and chill. Don't want to always be stuck in this mundane life cycle, but well I guess, life is fast-paced and time always passes by in a blink of an eye. Always need to move together with the times. 

LOVE

Still waiting for someone to fill that empty gap. As mentioned in my previous post, there's this longing for love and someone to be there to share moments in life together. Whenever I watch drama or We Got Married with like really cute and heart fluttering scenes I always get so jealous and envy of them like WHEN WOULD MY MS RIGHT COME LOL

HAPPINESS

It'll be nice if one could be happy and without worries and frustrations for the rest of their lives. How nice would it be if everyday is filled with joy and moments which make you smile at the end of each day.  

More importantly to live in each moment and enjoy life.

ME | #30DAYS .

[Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else]

In the final few days of my #30DAYS challenge and the topics are getting harder and harder. Like how would I go about writing today's post... everyone's different in their own way so there isn't any like specific comparison for "everyone else" here as everyone is unique.

I'm not sure if the traits or characteristics I mention here are really what that makes me different. So, I'll tell you how I see myself - both good and bad points, and let you decide how I'm different from everyone else.

I'm actually quite shy and introverted, but if I get to know you better, I can be seen as someone who is very lively and bubbly. You can say that I'm quite an optimistic person and despite having bad times, I always try to look on the bright side and think that every experience is an learning opportunity. I'm someone who finds it hard to talk about matters of the hearts or any problems as I try not to burden others with my problems, and usually tend to keep them to myself. But then I'm someone who tends to listen to others problems and try to give advice. There are times when I want to mingle around talk to people, but there are times I want to be by myself.

I'm lazy at times but if I am hardworking, I can be really hardworking. I hope I can live up to the expectations people have of me, but usually I just tend to do whatever I feel like. I'm someone who likes to plan things ahead and don't like to do things last minute but when that happens, I tend to go with the flow and hope that things go okay. Sometimes I don't even know what I am thinking. Still in the midst of finding my purpose in life.

Basically, I'm just ... me.

THANKFUL | #30DAYS .

[Day 21- A recent event which made you happy]

While thinking of what to write about for today's topic, I was scrolling my gallery and organising them then I saw a group of pictures which made me remember the attachment which ended 3 weeks ago!! It was an event which made me feel very thankful and satisfied about.

For a period of 2 months we were attached to the childcare centre, going there almost every day. It was a new experience but thankfully we all made it through thanks to the support of our mentor, the staff and the parents there. Something I was really thankful for was the support given to us for our practicum, especially the final one where we had to plan a parental workshop. It was the one which everyone feared as we are just practicum students and had no experience so it was quite an interesting experience as we started from scratch from the planning to preparations to inviting parents and executing the event.

SOULMATE? | #30DAYS .

[Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future]

What is this topic even .........

Literally don't know what to write for today's topic (since I don't have anyone now #singlelife). Actually being single has it perks too, but then again there is the longing for love and having someone to be there and share each other's happiness and sadness. Have the feels to get into a serious relationship but there's no one LOL DAMN SAD.

But honestly, more than just looks, it'll be nice if there's someone to connect on emotionally, someone who can understand, have similar interests and click well. Depending on each other through hard times and just having someone to talk to everyday just feels very comforting.

Probably just going to stay delusional for the time being and continue supporting my baes LOL

BACKSTORY : NICKNAMES | #30DAYS .

[Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them]

I have a couple of nicknames which people call me by - because apparently some are too lazy to pronounce 'Ming Chong'. Like the most prominent and common nickname people call me by is MC, like always hear MC MC everywhere (like maybe because it's short for medical certificate and it's also my initials so). And also 'Ming' like just short form of my full name so like not really nicknames but names people call me by.

There were also people who call me 'Chong Ming' like it means like smart/clever in mandarin so like even recently there's a lecturer who called me that lol (and whenever she says that she always say not to tell my parents because later they scold her for changing my name LOLOL)

I don't remember any significant or interesting nicknames I have but I do remember one from primary school, where my social studies teacher gave me a name 'Giggle-Byte' (as in gigabyte lol) because I always like to laugh a lot in classes so it's quite interesting and fitting lol.

DREAMING | #30DAYS .

[Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have]

Yet another post which talks about the future. As someone who still haven't really figured out my direction in life, topics like these makes it hard for me to decide what I want to do in the future. Through different experiences in life, I always want to try out different things, yet prefer to stay in my comfort zone.

Whenever I experience something new and interesting, I always have that thought like "Oh let's do it again!" or I want to do something like that in the future, so my goals and dreams often change when I get inspired by different things.

TAKE CHARGE OF YOUR OWN LIFE | #30DAYS .

[Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why]

This is such a random question which might seem easy but is surprisingly difficult for me. This is like a once in a lifetime kind of opportunity so I have to choose someone which is really interesting.

If I were to live someone’s life for one day, I would want it to be someone who truly inspires me. I wouldn’t just want to have a day in the life of a celebrity or a rich person, but to experience a day in the life of someone who leads a fulfilling life and someone makes a difference in other's lives.

I might have to pass on this question though, don't really have a specific person I want to switch lives for a day. Like honestly even though we complain about our lives all the time, there's nothing much to do but to follow your life or make your own life. Always remember that there are people who are living under circumstances which is far worse than ours.

Everything will be good as long as you do your best. Because if you do, there will be no regrets.

四年 后 | #30DAYS .

[Day 16- A heartbreaking event you experienced recently]

Before starting on today's blog post, I didn't have any idea on what to write. There isn't something very heartbreaking which I have experienced recently, albeit there has been negative feelings but nothing very heartbreaking. So my friend suggested to me to write about an event which has been pretty personal to me and deep in my heart.

It's been a long time since I talked about this and it has really made a huge impact on my life and it's something which I hope I would not ever experience again. The five days was the lowest period of my life.

Being together under the same roof for 15 years and then suddenly, she's no longer there anymore. I had a lot of regrets thinking about it, being willful and not facing the fact during the last few days. I was in delusion that what I feared for would happen. But ultimately, it was inevitable.

I still remember the night before, we had our last conversation. I still remember the details and even though she wasn't really in her right frame of mind already, she was still caring for our well-being and asking if we have eaten. I was really upset and in pain seeing her suffer, in fact the final few days, I tried to not think of the bad side but things did not seem to be so bright. I tried to stay strong and put on a strong positive front, so not to let them worry but after the demise, I couldn't hold it back.

I remember that morning, my aunt went into my room, broke the news to me, we cried together. She told me to control my feelings and that we should not be too sad but upon going into her room and calling her for the last time 'mama', I broke down. I couldn't hold it in anymore.

typing this post brings back a lot of memories 

4 years on.

Remembering the happy memories and the sad memories. I have learnt a lot from her and I have learnt a lot from this experience. After that five days, I finally understood the importance of cherishing the people around you, and not having any regrets. Missing you.

我和您共同的那些回忆，
我永远会记住的。
您最后一次对我说的那几句话，
我也会记得的。

没有你的日子，
感觉缺少了什么似的，
空荡荡的，
再也无法听到您的笑声了

永远记住，#想念你 的

x

MUSIC SHUFFLE | #30DAYS .

[Day 15- Put your music player on shuffle: First 10 songs that play]

Finally reached the midpoint of my #30DAYS challenge! This is going to be another short post so I'm sorry if it's very boring. As mentioned in one of my previous post, I listen to a lot of korean songs so I wouldn't be surprised if all 10 songs that play are all korean lol. And because I have a lot of songs on my phone (currently a total of 2099), so I'm rather curious to which songs will be played on shuffle - I feel like there'll be a lot of unexpected songs which I haven't played in forever HAHA. Like usually when I listen to songs I don't usually listen from the list of all my songs (like there's alot of songs I don't frequently play), but I do have playlists or listen to certain albums/artists depending on my mood. I'm also going to put links of the songs if anyone might want to check them out.

start: 1507

Song #1 - 'Some Love' by Red Velvet
Song #2 - 'Bad Girl' by Girls' Generation
Song #3 - 'You Are In Love' by Taylor Swift
Song #4 - 'Secret' by Girls' Generation-Yuri & Seohyun
Song #5 - 'The One Like You (그대라는 한 사람)' by Jessica
Song #6 - 'Sailing (그 여름 0805)' by Girls' Generation
Song #7 - 'Hush (허쉬)' by miss A
Song #8 - 'Lotto' by EXO
Song #9 - 'Can You Hear Me (들리니)' by Lucky J
Song #10 - '2411' by Crush

end: 1544

PHOTOLOG: NEIGHBOURHOOD | #30DAYS .

[Day 14- A picture of your neighbourhood]

Before doing this post I was worried for a moment like thinking what sort of neighbourhood photos should I include for this post and do I even have pictures of my neighbourhood. So I looked through my gallery and thank god I actually have some scenic photos taken of my neighbourhood!

NOTE | #30DAYS .

[Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently]

Hello.

It's been a really long time. It's has been hard on you, but you are doing well so far. Just believe in yourself and you can do almost anything. Don't let negative thoughts overtake you and always remember not to keep all the negativity in. There are times when it is okay to let it all out, there are times where it is okay to say no. There's no need to show a positive image everytime. Be a stronger person, push your limits and you will achieve things which you never expect.

Learn to express yourself better and not to be scared of judges and criticism. Take them in your pride. Always tell yourself that every experience is an learning opportunity. It's okay to make mistakes but don't take it too hard on yourself. Afterall, we all learn from mistakes.

People might not see your worth but just remember to stay humble and do your thing well. Don't mind the negative and judgemental comments as long as you tried your best. Show gratitude to people who helped you grow as a person and don't forget your roots. Despite having undesirable past, don't forget them. Instead, take the setbacks in life as a reminder to not go back to the old days.

Being yourself is most important and always always remember to not lose yourself on the journey of self-discovery. Just remember to have fun and enjoy life - living each moment to the fullest.

x

BACKSTORY: BLOG | #30DAYS .

[Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one]

I just realised it has been 7 years since I created this blog (first post was on 26 October 2009), and I think that was the period of time after PSLE exams so it has been a really really long time! If I didn't remember wrongly, back then after PSLE we had a lot of free and easy time and then there was the trend of having blogs (as well as Friendster accounts) in my primary school class. And then we all started to blog and share daily lifes and we also like to go to each other's blogs and read and comment stuff so it was pretty cool for a primary 6 kid.

I decided making a blog was mainly because, everyone was doing it! And it can also be like an online diary thing for me and my friends to get a more personal insight on my life. Like I remember even in secondary school, I continued blogging and then it became quite a regular thing. But like a couple of years back I refurbished the site and deleted quite a lot of old posts - which is kind of regretful as all the posts actually shows my growth and thoughts through the past 7 years but I guess those were memories which I didn't want to remember or something but oh wells, every experience in life helps us to learn something so it's something quite regretful to delete so many posts.

Like for the past two years I haven't been blogging alot as compared to last time, thus now I started this #30DAYS challenge to maybe try to make blogging a more regular thing? I wouldn't want to lose memories and experiences when I grow old so keeping a blog actually helps you to reminisce all the moments I experienced so it's actually quite nice.

REVIEW: TRAIN TO BUSAN | #30DAYS .

[Day 11- Favourite movie watched recently]

One of the movies which I watched recently was the popular korean zombie movie 'Train To Busan' and I really really liked it. It gets you feeling different emotions throughout the movie, from getting your heart racing to getting really frustrated and then feeling emotional.